Thursday, May 2, 2013

Wild thoughts

After a particularly busy week last week, I wanted to camp in with old movies and a good wine then catch up on unfinished business. The weekend was planned. Then, midway through Saturday morning, my phone pinged with a reminder that I had a haircut appointment that day. Oh no. This changed my plans. I wasn't too thrilled. 

I got to the hair salon with my planner in hand. I was going to work on that unfinished business and get something productive done. My mind was racing with ideas, conversations I needed to follow-up on and deadlines that are looming. Yet, once there, I couldn't work. Normally my anxiety would escalate into a fast-paced heart and a bad mood. My thoughts were running wild with worries, heartbreak, things to do, work I had to finish and my interrupted weekend plans. 

I sat and observed the people around me. I listened to their voices, heard their conversations and enjoyed just being there. This was strange. I was at peace, calm. I can never do this, not on purpose. To tame my thoughts and be at peace at any moment is an incredible feat. 

What did I do different? I let go. I didn't try to control my mind or subdue my thoughts. I was living the moment without judging anything that was happening. I realized that the more we try to control our mind, the more uncontrollable it becomes. 

Today is a good day to take a moment and feel the air on your skin, listen to the sounds around you, see the colors of the day. If you need a moment of peace, find it by focusing on this very moment. Let go and feel with all your senses what is happening right now. 

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